Memory all alone in the moonlight...

Lately one of the main things that has been running through my mind is memories.  As I sit here In my college dorm I wonder how I got here, who made me the person I am today, and what will my future bring.  Yeah they sound like typical SAT essay writing prompts but lets get real , no one truly knows the answer to these cliche questions.

As I am awaiting break, ( a much needed one at that) I have been taking walks with my friend Adam.  On these walks I have been thinking about childhood memories, and I can't help but fill him in on them.  Memories like,the way my sister, Sarah and I would wake up every morning to watch my mom head to work and wave to her as she drove down our street.  The way we used to flip our living room chair over and pretend it was a pirate ship.  The "fling your shoe game" off the swing set waiting for mom to come home for work so we could have dinner (something I miss the most my Dad's meals!).  Or silly T.V. rituals, like watching Saved By the Bell before going to school in the morning.  It honestly feels like just yesterday my Dad was dropping me off at Little Friends Nursery School, me with my little knapsack on my back ready for a day of coloring and pasting lol  Those are only some of the many memories I have from my childhood, Hey when you grow up with 5 siblings everyday is a new adventure.

I recently just watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and it taught me a life lesson.  I love when movies have a message, and for me the message was a much needed reality check.  The life lesson I learned (from what started as a boring movie but ended up being inspirational) was "Memories whether good or bad are not meant to be forgotten".  Yes, there are parts of your life that don't go as well as planned but those are the moments that justify those SAT questions.  If you let one bad memory or event take over your life how do you plan to start having good memories again.  The future can only bring what you allow it to bring, and you choose happiness, happiness doesn't choose you.  
 
As a child happiness was so easy to obtain, because stress didn't really play a factor on my life.  As a child your innocent to the world not having to make decisions for yourself.  Sometimes I wish life would slow down because I'm still not sure what decisions to make or what to do with my life.  But my biggest advice to myself and friends lately has been "Whatever decision you choose make the best of it, in the end your only decision is to choose happiness, if you always wonder how life would be if you chose the other path then you didn't make the wrong decision your just choosing not to be happy".

So with the holidays coming up and Thanksgiving right around the corner,
I am thankful for happiness and choosing happiness..


Is anybody with me?

I came to win, to fly, to conquer, to thrive

There is always that one song on your iPod that when you hear it at the gym or when your on a run you instantly have a smile on your face.  Fly is my song.  No matter how bad my day is or how stressful it is becoming an engineer, I know that I came to Clarkson to win.

Lately, I haven't been, (as Charlie Sheen would say) "winning" at this game called Life.  I have been in what my mom would call a "rut".  But this weekend, as unproductive as I was, gave me time to think and time to realize I just got to do it! So I have been back up with hitting the gym, an hour a day "doing work" on the elliptical in hopes to be able to run the Canjo Turkey Trot when I go home for thanksgiving.  With the help of a wonderful care package from the Adams Family, I am getting out of my rut and getting pumped for the holidays.  Although it is at that time of year when it gets dark at 5 and the weather in Potsdam is extremely bipolar, I can't let stuff like that get me down.

And no matter how my day goes, I can always count on my residents to put a smile on my face.  Although at times being an RA is more work then I want, I live with 50 wonderful people who keep me laughing all day and night (us kids on Brooks 3 never sleep).  My family also keeps me going, knowing that my little siblings are proud of me puts a smile on my face.

Thanksgiving is right around the corner!!!..and I can't wait till I can start blasting Christmas music and getting Brooks 3 in the holiday spirit!

Getting pumped for the holidays

Anybody with me?