Cause tonights the night the world begins again...

Well here we are hours away from the ball dropping, its funny how in that ten second countdown you recap your year but as soon as you hear the "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!", your slate is clean and you're ready to start a new one.

I can honestly say 2012 has been a rocky year for me.  I did a lot of crying, a lot of laughing and a lot of reevaluating my life.  Somewhere in between the tracks of finishing my sophomore year, saying goodbye to my teenage years, change with friends and starting my junior year; I lost something .  A part of me that keeps me happy through the rough times and keeps my head up even when I feel like quitting.

 Quite frankly I hate this new Mary, she's kind of a bitch, pretty lazy and lets people walk all over her. So over the break I caught up on sleep, by losing wisdom teeth and sleeping through the 7 days I looked like a chipmunk.  I regained the fun in life by playing with my siblings and talking to my bro John, who has only flourished through his first semester at college.  I got outside to breathe the fresh Canajoharie air, and am ready to take on this coming up year,

and Hey...

I wasn't a total loser in 2012, I crossed an item off my bucket list "To fulfill a new year's resolution", yes ladies and gents I was a vegetarian for an entire year.  Many of you may ask what are my plans for 2013, I plan on adding chicken back in my diet (Dad's orders) but I did it!  I cut 10 min off my boilermaker 15k time.  I got a professional job working at a bank.  I met 50 new freshman, some baller residents.  I keep the same close ties with my old residents, or as Tomass prefers me to call them "friends" :) (believe me they are my friends, they still have my back)  My GPA continues to increase every semester.  I was a role model for 24 middle school girls at a summer camp that still contact me today to see how I am. I got a little in my sorority her name is Jess, shes pretty awesome if you ask me.  And...I set a new NEW years resolution, in the year of 2013 I want to be able to say I ran 1000 miles collectively through the year (not all at once I'm not any Forest Gump haha), I am doing this with one of my best friend, Karen. 

But tonight when I am counting down those 10 seconds and watching the ball drop, you bet I will have a smile on my face.  I got a good feeling about 2013 and it's definitely time to get the old Mary back.

Set some good new years resolutions!
Fingers crossed for a happy 2013,

Anybody with me?

I get by with a little help from my friends ..

This semester has been a mix of emotions, and once again I was in a depressed rut, because friends were being not so friendly, and "sisters" were being not so sisterly.  Nothing made anything better not sleep, not healthy food, not exercise,not Mom's care packages, and home only made me want to not go back to Clarkson.

There is just something about Clarkson this year that isn't the same

 .....

Until I got a surprise visitor yesterday, Michael!  One of my best friends from last year came up to visit the old brooks 3 gang, and got them all back together.  We all had a great night catching up with tons of laughs, leading to our old traditional Sunday RoBro Breakfasts.  Seeing my family from last year made me realize I have all these people that support me, and are my friends.  I don't have to see them everyday, or hang out with them every week for them to care about me, and they all know I care about them.  Sometimes you just need that reminder that even though things in life change, your family will always be there for you.

After an unreal weekend, I decided to call my mom to tell her about the visit.  She started crying on the phone (which in turn made me cry) telling me:

 "See Mary I don't know how you can be upset with all of these wonderful people in your life that care about you and are your friends"..."I understand that people hurt you but there is so much more to life, it truly is wonderful" 

and my favorite line "If this doesn't get you out of your rut, I am not sure what will"..  Which of course made me laugh, mom had to throw in her sarcastic remark, I think it's an Adams' thing.  But you're right mom, your right.  This got me out of my rut and I have less than 2 weeks before I head back to the glorious metropolis of Canajoharie.  

So here's to friends, the people that you meet that love you for who you are, not just love you because your related.

I think life is pretty wonderful too, mom.

Anybody with Me?

I can't talk to my mother so I talk to my diary...

Ok so I am more than capable of talking to my mom but right now in order to get my feelings off my chest I decided to "talk to my diary" aka blog ...

So my last blog was about being at a bus stop, well last time I checked, Mary Adams isn't capable of waiting for something in her life to happen, she makes things happen.  And somewhere along this semester I lost that.  I hit a bunch of rough patches, got kinda snippy and became a scrooge.  Yikes, I don't know about you but that just sound awful.

With one of my favorite holidays around the corner I decided its about time I get the happy goal oriented Mary back.  Being home with the family will definitely make things better.  Mom always seems to be the one to put me back into place and I miss my little siblings terribly.  I can't wait to catch up with my brother, John who has almost finished his first semester at college.  My little (well not so little) brother is growing up!

I've been stressed, tired, and extremely busy this semester.  This break will be a much needed one.  I am awaiting mom's favorite question at our traditional thanksgiving breakfast, "what are you thankful for this year?" Well I am already prepared with an answer, support.  I am thankful that my dad checks in with me every week to see how I am doing, I am thankful that my mom will send me a card just to remind me that she is proud of me, I am thankful for my friends who listen and put up with my sassyness (James and Karen), and I am thankful for my siblings, especially my older sister Sarah.  We have our moments but at the end of the day she tells me to suck it up and move on cause life is life, no reason to fret about it.  Shes pretty straight forward and she doesn't sugar coat anything.

Here's to thanking everyone in our lives that support and care for us

and 

Here's to getting yourself back on track!

Anybody with Me?

I've been sitting, waiting, wishing ....

So a lot has happened to me in the past month, some good a lot bad.  But I'm in a point in my life where I'm at a quote on quote "bus stop".  I came up with this term with my best friend, Karen Dawson.  See the term comes from being at a point in your life when you can't possibly do anything more than you do, and you just have to wait and see how things play out.

Don't mistake this "bus stop" term for me slacking, because I definitely can't slack.  I have way to much going on to do that.  There just comes a time in your life when your doing all you can and somethings just need to fall into place or something just needs to happen.  I guess this term is harder to explain then it is to think about haha.

On a less confusing note, Junior year is kicking my ass.  I am not getting a lot of sleep, and my days are so long with meetings, homework and classes.  One thing that keeps me going are my residents, even though freshman are a lot of work, they remind me that I can still be a kid.  From the crazy car chases to the late night chats with ice pops or fruit smileys, they are fucking ridiculous.  And I LOVE IT!   By being an RA I have met such awesome kids on campus, from my old residents to my new, I can't walk to class without hearing a "HEY MARY!!".  Its great to know that I have made a lot of friends at Clarkson.  They help me really feel at home.

On a happier note, I have a Pen Pal, Hannah Monk.  It is so nice to get a letter and hear all about grad school.  She really motivates me to strive to do my best, considering grad school is no joke.  Its nice being able to vent and hear about her life since we are so far apart.

I feel like I am at a weird point in my life, but I am still keeping a smile on my face (well as much as possible).

Sitting at a bus stop..
Is Anybody with me?

I'll be up up and away Up up and away Cause they gon' judge me anyway so whatever

I couldn't have said it better myself Kid Cudi, people in life are gonna say what they want about you no matter what you do.  I live my life on a mostly clean slate, and still can't win.  So when I'm feeling down and judged, what better place to go, then home.  A place where I'm loved no matter what.

And that's just what I did....

I came home this weekend for a surprise visit, It's nice to be home around the fam, and eating good food, wait let me rephrase that GREAT food.  And nothing beats the surprise look on my mom's face when she walks in from work and I am sitting in the living room.  Today was such a nice Sunday with the family, went to a craft fair, out to eat, hot apple cider, and snuggling up in my bed.  Just the remedy to get me back to the old grind on Tuesday.

But not everything is bad to report... Tis my favorite season FALL!! The leaves are changing, the weather is getting to be that perfect temperature, and there are tons of apple flavored goodnesses spreading the stores and of course Halloween.

An updated report of my floor , Brooks 2, I LOVE THEM TO PIECES.  They keep me laughing, smiling, and up until 4 in the morning. I am pretty sure our motto is "Go Hard or Go Home" and believe me they don't come home till late lol. But what a great bunch of kids. I have been saying it a lot lately, that I love my RA job, I really do.  It's probably one of my favorite jobs I have ever had.

School is challenging but as a Junior Civil Engineer what can you expect .. I am busy busy busy! But I am keeping up with everything, well except for sleep haha .. But that's what break is for!

Keeping my head up

Is anybody with me?

If you ask me how I'm doing, I will say I'm doing just fine

So after a week of classes, I hate to say it but mom was right.  I was going to make this year fun whether I had my old residents or not.  I wouldn't trade my new floor for the world.  I instantly clicked with my new residents!  Maybe I am actually getting the hang of this RA gig.  Gotta love my South Side, Bro-town, Baseball Bros and the few, the proud amount of girls on my new floor, Brooks 2.

After the first week of classes, it finally hit me: I am a Junior! Shit... That means the real world is coming and I am actually taking classes specifically for Civil Engineering and my concentraion in Construction Management.  Yes, a girl in construction, it happens. I ain't scared.  My teachers seem pretty promising this semester, and I got my good friend James (in everyone of my classes) to get through the semester.

Our sorority is days away from giving out our first bids so we can have our first Alpha Class, and soon to be a Chapter at Clarkson University.  Who would of thought, I would come to college and help start a new sorority on a male based campus.. "that shit cray".

Karen and I are still working on our Running Community, not like the girl doesn't have enough on her plate already. Talk about role model.

I am still keeping with my vegetarianism, 9 months!!! New Years Resolution will be fufilled.  Now thats something for the bucket list.

But for now, I'm content with life.  Everything is going great, who would of thought the year would start off so smooth after a summer of doubts. 

Staying happy through the rain or sunshine,

Anybody with me?

This is it boys, this is war... What are you waiting for?

So as you can see I'm getting myself back to go to Clarkson for my Junior year... and ok maybe calling it "war" is a little exaggeration... But at the same time I have so much on my plate this year, and my Google calender is pretty much marked until December haha. But I am excited for a new group of residents, accepting more sisters into KDX, being a class representative and possibly starting a new running group on campus.  Clarkson can't get enough of me .. (well that's what I like to think)

I am writing this blog post because 1) It was on my end of the summer bucket list, and 2) I figured I would recap my summer and what I've learned.

        So this summer started out rough, in the fact that I was in a terrible rut.  Upset, mad, confused and I felt lonely.  One of my best friends won't be attending Clarkson in the fall.  And at first this news seemed impossible to get over, but I started to understand that people have to do whats best for them.  I mean I always strive to do the best for myself, and everyone should do the same.
        The "turn-around point" of my summer was the Boilermaker 15k.  I ran the boilermaker for the second time in my life, cutting 10 min off my overall time. It was my goal to do so, some thought I was crazy and couldn't do it.  It felt great to accomplish a goal and prove people wrong, next year I hope to go out and do the same thing.
         I worked 2 jobs this summer, one at NBT Bank (the home of champions) and a math and science camp for girls (Horizons).  Each places where I met great people from the ages of 13-50.
         My sister brought me to my first concert this summer, where I saw Drake and J-Cole.  I saw one movie this summer "Ted" with all my siblings, it was a great bonding moment for all of us.(Now my little brother Luke and I are thunder buddies)
          One of my favorite parts of the summer, I had a birthday party (my first one since kindergarten) thrown by my coworkers at Horizons that I knew for one week! They hid in my room for 2+hours waiting for me, dedication right there.  I wanted to cry with joy knowing that people would  do that for me, especially people I just met.  Not every girl celebrates their 20th birthday with a pinata! haha

So when people ask me, Oh hey, What did you do this summer? I'm gonna say "I had a freaking blast".  Why? Because although I'm growing up, I'll always be a little kid.  I can work at professional jobs (like the bank) or learn life lessons, but I can also be given a plunger to break a pinata and laugh my ass off for days.  

Got myself back in shape, got a brand new kind of haircut to get on Wednesday, finish my end of my summer bucket list.... And I'll be packing the car and heading up to Potsdam City...

Here's to smiles, laughter and tears!

Anybody with me?

You don't know your beautiful ..

I know its embarressing I'm using One direction lyrics in my blog but after spending two weeks with 13-15yr olds, you can imagine what music I have been listening too..  Its better than biebs "If I was your boyfriend I'd never let you go".  So two weeks with 48 young teenagers, one week with Horizon I (my 8th graders) and a week with Horizon II (my 9th graders).  But what did I learn??

Suprisingly I learned so much from Horizon I that it was almost a little life changing.  These girls of all sizes, ethnicities and all sorts of crazy taught me something.  Each with natural beauty had this confidence, like "Yeah I'm Sexy and I Know It".  They didn't care what anyone thought of them no matter how crazy or home sick.  They are proud of who they are.  I don't know many middle schoolers that think that way.  As we all know middle school was that awkward stage in our life, I had a jew fro and a mouth full of braces, I know sounds real attractive.  But not all young teenagers can be that great.  My second week at Horizons wasn't nearly as fun as the first.  I had the typical group of teenagers, the clicks; the mean girls.  Reminding me how much I hated middle school because it wasn't based on being yourself it was based on trying to be someone else.  And these girls haven't realized that yet.  The importance of being yourself.  I can try and try to teach them, but It's something you have to teach yourself.  To love yourself for who you are, hell the Horizons I girls figured it out. 

My mom was excited when I got the Horizons job, because she knew I could make a difference in someone's life.  And for the Horizons I girls they made a difference in my life, and I can tell by the letters and songs they made me, I made some kind of impression on them.  For Horizons 2 I didn't give up mom, It's not like me to give up.  But some problems I can't solve, as much as I wanna think I'm a therapist, I'm on the path to be an engineer.  I can give these girls insight but somethings in life you need to learn on your own.

As for me, My sleep schedule has been nutty, My diet has been fantastic =P ( Robro decides that pasta and chicken are the only things to serve to children. To bad I'm a vegetarian and pasta just gets old), and my voice is started to go from yelling so much.... BUT the girls that I work with at Horizons and the girls I have met in the program will forever make a lasting impression on my life...

Thank you girls for life lessons, for waking me up at 5 AM to sing happy birthday to me, for throwing me a birthday party with "sexy craig", for laughing at my jokes, and most importantly putting a smile on my face...

Here's to the good people in the world and a round of applause and hugs to them,

Anybody with me?

This is the hardest story that I've ever told....

Before I start this blog post, I would love to say that my blog has been up and running for a little less than a year, and has over 1000 views.  I thank my friends and family for all taking an interest in my life.  And giving my blog a shot! Support is what I need :), and I am proud to say I am over this "summer rut" I have been stuck in!!

What better lyrics to start this blog, with Mika, in honor of a holiday I celebrate religiously with one of my great friends Brandon Ketteman on every Monday.(Mika Monday of course!!) I have been working hard on this blog post as it will take a lot out of me, hey if its a hard story then there better be a lot to it, and it better be good.

I am almost nearing my  twentieth birthday, when I will be saying good bye to my teenage years and to me this means I am officially an adult.  I was never one of those kids that wished they were older, like "ohh I can't wait till I am 16 so I can drive", in all honesty I hate driving, Its scary haha.  I always enjoyed the age I was at and never expected anything more or less.

I remember when I was younger I was always homesick, and wanted to be home more than anything else.   I never thought I would overcome that, and now my home is temporary.  A place where I visit the folks and catch up with the fam.  Home is like going to a friends house and sleeping over. And I think that's one of the biggest things that finally proves your entering adulthood, the place where you grew up is full of memories, but isn't your permanent home anymore.

 But as I leave my teenage years behind I realized I have done a lot but I also have a lot to learn.

For Example:

• Realizing that I can't make everyone happy, and others emotions shouldn't affect my own-- I tend to be sensitive, and take things very personally, because I am a personable person. lol If that makes any sense what so ever .
• Its ok to freak out, and its ok to cry--  I have done a lot of crying since I left school in May.  This summer has been an emotional roller coaster with friends and family.
• RELAX-- Thinking as great as it is, can be the death of me.  When I think to much I put my mind in all crazy emotions.
• To not be so hard on myself-- Sometimes I have to remember, to  "Save your strength for things that you can change, Forgive the ones you can't,You gotta let 'em go"
• MOST IMPORTANTLY: That people come and go in life, you can't make them stay, but you can remember and cherish the friendships and memories you share.-- There are gonna be those people in my life that are my best friends.  But things happen and I can't keep them in my life forever.  Realizing that was a big growing up moment for me this summer.
• Eat Clean and train Dirty --This summer I have taken fitness to a whole new level, and my diet the same.  I have given up meat this year as a new years resolution (hey one thing on my bucket list is to complete a new years resolution, I mean how many people can say they did that), due to my lactose intolerance my protein shakes are made with almond milk.  And a four mile run is becoming an "easy day". I am down 20lbs and I'm actually gonna do it this year, reach my goal wieght! I recently cut 10 min off of my 15k time for a pr of 1:32:29.

My mom recently asked me "how does it feel to be a success story?".  I paused and said "what?".  She replied, "how does it feel to have done everything you can possibly do and more and succeed".  I sat and looked at her confused, kind of like the look I give most of my engineering test at Clarkson. haha.  I never really thought about being a "success story", or that not many people my age do what I do.  I just grew up thinking that challenging myself was what I was supposed to do, and if I wasn't pushing myself to my limits, I was slacking.  My parents have done a great job in that department especially.  Reminding me not to settle and that hard work will someday get you somewhere.  I am still waiting for the "somewhere" haha, but It's nice to know your parents are proud of you.

So here I sit in my room, the walls are covered with Will Ferrell quotes, my running bibs, magazine covers, and pictures of my childhood.  This room each minute is becoming less and less "my room", and more and more my "vacation home".

But nothing can stop time or the fact that growing up is hard

Here's to growing up, doing the best you can possible do, and not forgetting to be a kid sometimes!

Anybody with me?

Big wheel keep on turnin', Proud Mary keep on burnin'

This is one of my favorite songs well first of all because it has my name in it, I mean what a great name I have =P.  But its a song that has a message to me, specifically.  That no matter what I do my wheels will keep on turning and I will keep on burning.  So far it has explained my fitness, I am on the ball this month of June, I have a calender in my room and mark it with my workout for the day, whether it be a three mile walk, 5 mile run or an hour of Zumba.

I am on track for "engineering" a new me.

Believe it or not I am turning 20 in July.  I only say that because my mom keeps reminding me how I look like a little girl still and my face hasn't changed since I was five.  Luckily for me I think I changed a little over the years I mean I don't have the huge afro or braces anymore lol  And for my 20's I wanna be in the best shape of my life, because a lot happens in your 20's.  No I am not talking about my 21st birthday, I am talking about graduating college, possibly grad school, working, meeting someone that I could possibly marry and have kids with.  Life changing stuff.  My weight isn't something I want "weighing" me down, when I am in my prime.

So every time my legs begin to hurt, I will push myself the extra mile.  When I want to slow down on a zumba song I won't because I know pushing myself will burn the extra calories.  When I wanna cheat on my burpees, I won't because then I am just cheating myself (even though they are a pain in the ass).  When I want to eat that ice cream or extra cookie, I won't because I know I should Eat Clean and Train Dirty, or Train Insane or Remain the Same.

And believe me I don't wanna stay the same.

The weather won't delay or stop me either.  I have to roll with the punches and I will do just that, can't be Proud Mary if I don't have anything to be proud of.

Here's to pushing yourselves past your limits, because just like rules , limits were meant to be broken.


Anybody with me??

Hey I just met you and this is crazy....

OK, a ridiculous title I know, a song that is more like a virus that gets stuck in your head and you can't get rid of it.  I personally LOVE driving around Canjo City to this song, but there is a deeper meaning in why I chose this song, believe me!!

I just recently finished my NBT Bank Teller Training, yes an engineer getting summer employment in the field of banking? It's not what you would expect a civil engineer to do but I mean it's me, I do some crazy unexpected things.  During training I met this woman,Tammy from PA, I know its crazy making a lady from PA come to the big metropolis of Canajoharie to do teller training.  But the weirdest thing is Tammy and I had so much in common, and I had an epiphany.  Its like a time when I would look back to one of those clever sayings you find in inspirational books like Chicken Soup for the Soul and find "People come into your lives for a reason".  And Tammy did just that.  She had curly hair, loved to run, her son was an engineer, and she had my exact personality.  Tammy was me, just the future me. She reminded me that "its never to late to start a new chapter in your life, to run everyday, and to look at yourself every day in the mirror and remind yourself you are beautiful".  Sometimes things in life really do happen for a reason, and Tammy was my motivation to keep doing what I am doing and to work harder.

So I have been home for a month, and I have accomplished a lot so far.  But its June, which means its Boilermaker season! Strict diets and running in the morning, oh gosh how I love my sleep but to be a successful runner getting up at 7 am to run everyday just seems right.

I only hope to accomplish more this summer, and to remember Tammy when I feel like giving up.  And that she would want me to always keep a smile on my face and to I run everyday even if its just a mile.


I will continue to believe that things in life happen for a reason,


Anybody with Me?

I wish I was cold as stone, Then I wouldn't feel a thing. I wish I didn't have this heart, Then I wouldn't know the sting of the rain

A longer title of my blog then I usually chose, but to stick with song lyrics like my other posts.  This one fits me the most right now.  I know it hasn't been very long since my last post, but I'm hoping that writing this post will make me feel better.

Lately I have been in a rut.

Wait let me restart, and tell you why I chose these lyrics.  Lately I have been feeling upset. Upset about leaving Clarkson for the summer, leaving my friends (old residents) , not being able to figure out how I feel about some people, scared for the next semester, and an all around a fear of change.  Yes I am almost 20, and I still get scared.  I am not afraid to say it.  Its just that my sophomore year went so well that I have huge fears about junior year, that it won't measure up, or I won't have as much fun with my residents.  Or I will lose friends, great friends that I made this year.

This rut is coming from emotions, and my sensitivity.  A rut that not even running can fix, and usually running fixes all my problems, well except for shin splints. This is why I wish I was "cold as stone" and didn't have these emotions or thought so much about things or felt the pain I feel.  I get attached to people because I care to much, I want people to be happy and I forget my own happiness.  Then I get myself all worked up, when in the end I know my mom is probably right like she always is "Mary your going to have another great year, because you will make sure of it".  As much as I doubt her she is probably right.

So with the Boilermaker in 50 days, I am gonna keep running.  And I hope that this running will get me out of this rut I'm in.  Because its summer, and I don't want anything holding me back.  

So I am using this Summer to find my happiness and get it back,

Anybody with me?

Cause I'm halfway gone and I'm on my way ....

And another year down at Clarkson University, holy hell still feels like I'm walking down that stage grabbing my diploma from my High School principal.  Pretty hard to believe that two more years and I'll be in the real world.  Finals week hit me hard this semester with having to say goodbye to my residents (aka my best friends), a group of kids I will never forget.  Believe me they made me a video, Brooks 3 will never be forgotten and that floor will never be the same.  But finishing the year with a higher GPA, a bunch of new friends, and memories that will last a lifetime, is the best way I could imagine finishing my sophomore year.

As for now i'm home, woohoo Canjo City, where its so exciting I can barely contain myself.  I just have so much time on my hands its ridiculous.  I can sleep through an entire night without having a resident knock on my door at 3am, I shower without flip flops on, I don't have to drag my keys everywhere afraid of being locked out, and I also don't have a resident (friend) in my room to keep me company or make me laugh.  Home has its ups and downs but believe me so does Clarkson.  Its not a one way street.

 I got big plans for the summer,

• I get to recap with my best friend from high school , Jane Marie
• I am working on living with Karen at some point, we're so alike its ridiculous
• A Brooks 3 reunion (I would hope to be in store)
• Working at Horizons in July
• Finding work until then (story of my life)
• Visiting some of my sorority sisters
• Helping my family out
• Getting myself back on track! 

My to-do/to-accomplish list for the summer is only growing, Mines well make the Summer of 2012 a great one!

Is Anybody with me?

I hate this part right here....

Oh the best time of the year, not.  It is a day away from dead week and It's getting to the part of the year I hate the most .. .. Finals.  Where an IV of red bull and coffee are hooked to my arms, and I see less and less of my bed each day.  But this finals week is different from the last, at the end of this finals week I'm going home.  May 5th mom will be here and we will be loading all my things in the KIA, heading for Canjo City.  I can't believe it, another year down and two more to go.  I'm not ready for this thing called the "real world" just yet haha.

The thing I will hate the most these next two weeks, well other than my finals will be saying good-bye.  I absolutely hate saying good-bye, more than anything else.  I'm going to be saying good-bye to my Clarkson Family (Brooks 3).  After May 5th , I will no longer be their RA (which I'm sure they are stoked about), and I will have to meet a new group of 50 freshman in the fall.  Oh god can't wait to do that again.  I made some of the best  memories this year between the numerous hospital visits, drunken teenagers, and late night talks in my room.  All the hell they put me through was definitely worth it but shh don't tell them I said that.  =) .. I hope to see them all this summer, maybe a Brooks 3 reunion is in store haha.  I can only hope I made their freshman year as fun as they made my sophomore year.  And news to my new freshman you got some BIG shoes to fill. Hahaha!

As for this summer I got one job already, always looking for more.  I always like having a full plate even in the summer, gotta stay busy.  Well another job other than being the laundry bitch at home haha.  Gotta love big families.  I got races to train for Boilermaker I hope your ready for Mary Adams, Round 2.  Can't forget Zumba with Carolyn.

But I'm excited to go home, even though its always bittersweet.  Which is a good thing, I have two homes, the "place where i grew up home" and "i am on my own home".  


So Summer 2012 I am so ready for you to start!


Is anybody with me?

That's something to be proud of That's a life you can hang your hat on...

Since I'm a country bumpkin and all now, listening to country music more than anything, My resident asked me "What country song defines you?".  I had no idea what to say, all of the songs I listened to I loved but nothing really clicked, until one day on Pandora, Thats Something to be Proud of came on.  As cliche as that sounds, this song really made me smile.  But why??

For every hard test I take here at Clarkson or a million homework assignments I have to hand in, I am proud of myself for majoring in engineering.  I am proud of being one of the 10 charter sisters to start a sorority on Clarkson's campus.  I am proud of my floor, Brooks 3, a bunch of winners =) .  I am proud of all I manage, between working on campus, RA-ing, Kappa Detla Chi, and SWE tutoring.  But with pride comes more goals and more things to accomplish.

I'm on spring break now realizing, once its over I have the hardest month left in the semester.  One of the weeks entail finals..ughh.  But not only are the tests something I'm not looking forward too, I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye to my residents.  I know I will see them next year but they won't be my residents and we won't get to share the crazy stories and events we shared this year.  Hell, our floor could be a TV show on MTV or VH1, people would love to see a day in the life of a Brooks 3 resident or the crap I have to face as their RA lol.  At first I thought I wouldn't be able to handle the job, and at times they give me a run for my money, but they all make me laugh soo much.

Every year as an engineering major, is supposed to get harder, the classes get harder, the test even harder.  But I can honestly say that this year has been 100% better than last.  I have met so many new people that have had such an impact on my life.  Between my sorority sisters and my residents, and meeting Karen Dawson (my gym partner #partnerincrime) life is good.

Yeah, there are always things to improve on but there are also so many things to be proud of.

Keep Calm and Put a Smile On,


Anybody with Me?

But I'm stuck in colder weather, Maybe tomorrow will be better

As the temperature varies so does the days of the week.  Someday's are great, while the other ones I could do without.  Everything lately is so inconsistent, and the only thing that's consistent is the work load I have on my plate.  The only thing I'm looking forward to is Spring Break, and that's because this upcoming winter break I will be spending at Clarkson.  But don't get me wrong, I plan to watch tons of movies and relax, with one of my great friends Karen Dawson.

Being an RA, your residents expose you to a lot of new different types of music, and through all the years of hating country I can't hate it anymore.  According to one of my residents (or I should say friends, they prefer it that way) you can relate life to every country song not every pop song on the radio.  And I hate to say it but he's right, can't see myself relating life to "Sexy and I Know It " or "A$$" lol.

After having a week of barely sleeping, and getting sick, a retreat with my sorority sisters did the trick.  I'm ready for the three days of school we have this week then winter break.  Winter break will consist of applying for more internships or research opportunities, as I am trying to put my summer life together.

I'm using this break to get back on track and prepared for the weeks that lie ahead.  Work hard and then spring break is about a month away, and initiation is before spring break which means Kappa Delta Chi will be official at Clarkson.  A year an a half of work, and were on the final stretch.  I can't wait, and am so proud of all of my sisters!!! (even if my residents do call us Mexicans) 

I also have a new quote to live life by:

  "Act Like A Woman, Dress Like A Lady, and Think Like A Boss"

I think they are solid words to live by,
Anybody with me?

Party like, like it's the end of the world. We gonna party like, like it's 2012

Yes, this is the year according to the Mayans that the world is ending.  Whether you believe in that or not I plan to live this year like its my last whether it is or not.  What do I have to lose if I make it the best year of my life.  

Good luck and events are heading my way.  KDChi is gonna be official this year whether it kills me or not. We have worked to hard and have come to far to not wear letters by the end of the semester . I will be wearing letters, I'm telling you lol.  This semester is a semester for a killer gpa, and I'm gonna get it.  Second semester as an RA, one semester down and I know what I am up against (the best floor in the quad).  I'm also thinking about starting a snow shoe club at Clarkson, we get the snow people, now lets use it!  But one thing that will change this semester is more "me" time, which consists of being at the gym.  I am thinking about becoming vegan, I need a healthy lifestyle, got to get in shape before KDChi's formal! I have a mission this semester: getting a summer job, whether its research, an internship or whatever.  I need to make some money this summer, cause next year I'm treating myself to a nice spring break, FLORIDA to see my cousin Eva (love that girl, shes one of my idols). Oh and also in 2012 I plan to run the Boilermaker 15k again in a faster time then last year, and hopefully fingers crossed a half-marathon . (Hey if the worlds ending I better cross somethings off my bucket list lol)

I know people are complaining saying, why wait for a new year to be a better person.  But its not waiting for a new year its using the new year as a NEW start, what better time to start.  I mean you have an entire 365 days ahead of you to become who you want to be!

So 2012, whether the world ends or not , I plan to live this year as the best year of my life.

Anybody with me?