THIS GIRL IS ON FIREEEE....

Not only do I love this song, cause Alicia Keys has some ballin' vocal cords but one of my old residents Tomass belted it out in the Subway line at school to get a free cookie.  Let's just say this song is not only a motivator but always puts a smile on my face.

But.. I  didn't just choose the song for Tomass, but for myself! After many interviews and weeks of stress I got the RD (Resident Director) position that I have wanted since I became an Resident Adviser.  With this opportunity I hope to show RA's how rewarding the job really can be.  Residence Life has become a big part of my life here at Clarkson.  This promotion means so much to me!

After catching up with an old resident he told me about his Big/Little people theory.  I know the name of the theory sounds absolutely ridiculous, but just hear it out.  The first thing he told me is that he's a big person now, and the little people don't matter. Of course this made me nervous, I don't want to be forgotten or remembered as a "little person". So here's the theory, "Little people are people who have nothing important going on in their life so they just run around talking about big people or other small people.  It's the little people that will be doing boring jobs doing boring stuff and never accomplish anything big in their life"....  So here was the tearjerker... "Big People make an impact on people's live's, just like you've made an impact on my life Mary".   Yes, some of you may be thinking to yourself what an abstract theory but as I had tears in my eyes and looked back at my phone I thought.. maybe he is on to something here.  After a rough fall semester, all these "little people" were starting to get to me, but in reality I let them get to me.  I fell down many times and had a hard time getting back up.  But Big people put a smile on their face and are only looking to be better than the person they were yesterday.

And a big WOOHOO to my blog for having over 2000 views!!!

I'm adding on to my miles, and keeping my head in the books for the next 2 weeks.  I can't wait to go home for Spring Break.  I haven't seen my family since January, that is way to long for a small town girl in a big family.  It's time to go home and see all the "Big people" in my life, my supporters and motivators.  Next goal on the list is to get an internship and everything will fall into place.  

Here's to forgetting the "little people" who bring you down,

Anybody with me?  

Just know you're not alone, Cause I'm going to make this place your home...

After a hectic month and even just a busy weekend, I think I am on the path to getting myself back on track. I have added some more miles to my tally for the year, kept my head in the books and stayed concentrated on my goals.  I had to really take a step back and evaluate what my game plan is for the years ahead.  I have recently been asking myself A LOT  "what do I want to do with my life"? 

But.. why did I choose these lyrics?? Well this honestly relates to my past 2 weeks.  With all this focus on Residence Life in these past two weeks I have realized I have made Clarkson University my home and showed others that it can be a humble abode for them to live in as well.  Through Carousel Weekend I have been reminded of the family that Res Life provides me and the family I can provide for my residents.  It allows me to realize how far I have grown in just 3 years at Clarkson.  A timid freshman to a role model for the underclassman.  It was a nice refresher and eye opener even though it was a bit tiring.

My mom and siblings were going to visit me at Clarkson on Friday, but of course my mom the busy bee she is got called into work.  Yes, I was disappointed and the fact my little brother cried because he missed out on an opportunity to make fun of my residents. The little smart ass that kid can be!  Just the thought that my mom and my younger siblings we're going to visit the arctic of Potsdam truly meant a lot to me.  Which makes me even happier that the days are getting closer and closer to spring break.

After calling my mom today, I realize that family and that sense of "home" will always be important to me. Whether I be in Canjo City or Potsdam City, I will always "make that place my home" and that I won't be alone with the new families I create.  My mom told me on the phone that she thinks I'm "getting my groove back" and she couldn't be happier.  Which in return makes me happy of course =)

So where ever you are, who ever your with, I have come to the conclusion that anywhere can be made your home if you really try and without my family, I wouldn't have been able to bounce back, or "get my groove back".

Here's to family, home and Beyonce (just cause I love her) =)
Anybody with me?

It's time to be a big girl now ... and big girls don't cry

So my residents have this new line, and any time anyone does something stupid all you here is "grow up" well unless your Draz of course then that's all you here is YERRRR..  Grow up?, well who wants to do that.

Speaking of growing up, my not so little sister turned sweet 16 not to long ago, who would of thought the Adams' would add another driver into the mix. I'm sure mom is stoked to teach a 4th child how to drive.  Makes me remember my first time driving....uhhh I still hate it.

This year I have been trying to have this new outlook on life.  I am trying to get myself back to how I used to be, which I have been pretty successful.  My residents told me I am acting happy again, which instantly makes my day better.  I have been going to the gym everyday with my seeeester, Rachel.  I am her trainer, I make her life a living hell for the hour and a half we are at the gym, but she goes home happy because she gets to admire her muscles.  Having all my classes on Tuesday and Thursday is actually a nightmare.  It's pretty stressful all homework is due at the same time on the same days and it gets overwhelming.  The career fair is around the corner, which always stresses me out.  Got to keep searching for those internships or coops, I think once I have one I will just be in a lot better shape.

I think what I really need to do is go back to what I do best, making others happy/making them laugh.  So I will be doing my acts of kindness again! I actually already started. I recently bought a bracelet for my seeester Rachel, a bracelet that reminds us no matter what faith and hope will get us through the toughest days.  I had a resident who was frantically trying to find his calculator 10 min before his chem exam, and I ran to my room to give him mine.  I know they sound like silly things, but making people happy is the only thing that makes me happy! 

I can't believe the first month of the new year is already over, and I feel like I haven't accomplished much.  I think I need a jump start for February.  Get some more miles in on the track, step it up a notch in my classes, put a smile on, and try to enjoy even the toughest days because:

"Life's to easy to be so damn complicated"

Anybody with me?

Cause tonights the night the world begins again...

Well here we are hours away from the ball dropping, its funny how in that ten second countdown you recap your year but as soon as you hear the "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!", your slate is clean and you're ready to start a new one.

I can honestly say 2012 has been a rocky year for me.  I did a lot of crying, a lot of laughing and a lot of reevaluating my life.  Somewhere in between the tracks of finishing my sophomore year, saying goodbye to my teenage years, change with friends and starting my junior year; I lost something .  A part of me that keeps me happy through the rough times and keeps my head up even when I feel like quitting.

 Quite frankly I hate this new Mary, she's kind of a bitch, pretty lazy and lets people walk all over her. So over the break I caught up on sleep, by losing wisdom teeth and sleeping through the 7 days I looked like a chipmunk.  I regained the fun in life by playing with my siblings and talking to my bro John, who has only flourished through his first semester at college.  I got outside to breathe the fresh Canajoharie air, and am ready to take on this coming up year,

and Hey...

I wasn't a total loser in 2012, I crossed an item off my bucket list "To fulfill a new year's resolution", yes ladies and gents I was a vegetarian for an entire year.  Many of you may ask what are my plans for 2013, I plan on adding chicken back in my diet (Dad's orders) but I did it!  I cut 10 min off my boilermaker 15k time.  I got a professional job working at a bank.  I met 50 new freshman, some baller residents.  I keep the same close ties with my old residents, or as Tomass prefers me to call them "friends" :) (believe me they are my friends, they still have my back)  My GPA continues to increase every semester.  I was a role model for 24 middle school girls at a summer camp that still contact me today to see how I am. I got a little in my sorority her name is Jess, shes pretty awesome if you ask me.  And...I set a new NEW years resolution, in the year of 2013 I want to be able to say I ran 1000 miles collectively through the year (not all at once I'm not any Forest Gump haha), I am doing this with one of my best friend, Karen. 

But tonight when I am counting down those 10 seconds and watching the ball drop, you bet I will have a smile on my face.  I got a good feeling about 2013 and it's definitely time to get the old Mary back.

Set some good new years resolutions!
Fingers crossed for a happy 2013,

Anybody with me?

I get by with a little help from my friends ..

This semester has been a mix of emotions, and once again I was in a depressed rut, because friends were being not so friendly, and "sisters" were being not so sisterly.  Nothing made anything better not sleep, not healthy food, not exercise,not Mom's care packages, and home only made me want to not go back to Clarkson.

There is just something about Clarkson this year that isn't the same

 .....

Until I got a surprise visitor yesterday, Michael!  One of my best friends from last year came up to visit the old brooks 3 gang, and got them all back together.  We all had a great night catching up with tons of laughs, leading to our old traditional Sunday RoBro Breakfasts.  Seeing my family from last year made me realize I have all these people that support me, and are my friends.  I don't have to see them everyday, or hang out with them every week for them to care about me, and they all know I care about them.  Sometimes you just need that reminder that even though things in life change, your family will always be there for you.

After an unreal weekend, I decided to call my mom to tell her about the visit.  She started crying on the phone (which in turn made me cry) telling me:

 "See Mary I don't know how you can be upset with all of these wonderful people in your life that care about you and are your friends"..."I understand that people hurt you but there is so much more to life, it truly is wonderful" 

and my favorite line "If this doesn't get you out of your rut, I am not sure what will"..  Which of course made me laugh, mom had to throw in her sarcastic remark, I think it's an Adams' thing.  But you're right mom, your right.  This got me out of my rut and I have less than 2 weeks before I head back to the glorious metropolis of Canajoharie.  

So here's to friends, the people that you meet that love you for who you are, not just love you because your related.

I think life is pretty wonderful too, mom.

Anybody with Me?

I can't talk to my mother so I talk to my diary...

Ok so I am more than capable of talking to my mom but right now in order to get my feelings off my chest I decided to "talk to my diary" aka blog ...

So my last blog was about being at a bus stop, well last time I checked, Mary Adams isn't capable of waiting for something in her life to happen, she makes things happen.  And somewhere along this semester I lost that.  I hit a bunch of rough patches, got kinda snippy and became a scrooge.  Yikes, I don't know about you but that just sound awful.

With one of my favorite holidays around the corner I decided its about time I get the happy goal oriented Mary back.  Being home with the family will definitely make things better.  Mom always seems to be the one to put me back into place and I miss my little siblings terribly.  I can't wait to catch up with my brother, John who has almost finished his first semester at college.  My little (well not so little) brother is growing up!

I've been stressed, tired, and extremely busy this semester.  This break will be a much needed one.  I am awaiting mom's favorite question at our traditional thanksgiving breakfast, "what are you thankful for this year?" Well I am already prepared with an answer, support.  I am thankful that my dad checks in with me every week to see how I am doing, I am thankful that my mom will send me a card just to remind me that she is proud of me, I am thankful for my friends who listen and put up with my sassyness (James and Karen), and I am thankful for my siblings, especially my older sister Sarah.  We have our moments but at the end of the day she tells me to suck it up and move on cause life is life, no reason to fret about it.  Shes pretty straight forward and she doesn't sugar coat anything.

Here's to thanking everyone in our lives that support and care for us

and 

Here's to getting yourself back on track!

Anybody with Me?

I've been sitting, waiting, wishing ....

So a lot has happened to me in the past month, some good a lot bad.  But I'm in a point in my life where I'm at a quote on quote "bus stop".  I came up with this term with my best friend, Karen Dawson.  See the term comes from being at a point in your life when you can't possibly do anything more than you do, and you just have to wait and see how things play out.

Don't mistake this "bus stop" term for me slacking, because I definitely can't slack.  I have way to much going on to do that.  There just comes a time in your life when your doing all you can and somethings just need to fall into place or something just needs to happen.  I guess this term is harder to explain then it is to think about haha.

On a less confusing note, Junior year is kicking my ass.  I am not getting a lot of sleep, and my days are so long with meetings, homework and classes.  One thing that keeps me going are my residents, even though freshman are a lot of work, they remind me that I can still be a kid.  From the crazy car chases to the late night chats with ice pops or fruit smileys, they are fucking ridiculous.  And I LOVE IT!   By being an RA I have met such awesome kids on campus, from my old residents to my new, I can't walk to class without hearing a "HEY MARY!!".  Its great to know that I have made a lot of friends at Clarkson.  They help me really feel at home.

On a happier note, I have a Pen Pal, Hannah Monk.  It is so nice to get a letter and hear all about grad school.  She really motivates me to strive to do my best, considering grad school is no joke.  Its nice being able to vent and hear about her life since we are so far apart.

I feel like I am at a weird point in my life, but I am still keeping a smile on my face (well as much as possible).

Sitting at a bus stop..
Is Anybody with me?