Big wheel keep on turnin', Proud Mary keep on burnin'

This is one of my favorite songs well first of all because it has my name in it, I mean what a great name I have =P.  But its a song that has a message to me, specifically.  That no matter what I do my wheels will keep on turning and I will keep on burning.  So far it has explained my fitness, I am on the ball this month of June, I have a calender in my room and mark it with my workout for the day, whether it be a three mile walk, 5 mile run or an hour of Zumba.

I am on track for "engineering" a new me.

Believe it or not I am turning 20 in July.  I only say that because my mom keeps reminding me how I look like a little girl still and my face hasn't changed since I was five.  Luckily for me I think I changed a little over the years I mean I don't have the huge afro or braces anymore lol  And for my 20's I wanna be in the best shape of my life, because a lot happens in your 20's.  No I am not talking about my 21st birthday, I am talking about graduating college, possibly grad school, working, meeting someone that I could possibly marry and have kids with.  Life changing stuff.  My weight isn't something I want "weighing" me down, when I am in my prime.

So every time my legs begin to hurt, I will push myself the extra mile.  When I want to slow down on a zumba song I won't because I know pushing myself will burn the extra calories.  When I wanna cheat on my burpees, I won't because then I am just cheating myself (even though they are a pain in the ass).  When I want to eat that ice cream or extra cookie, I won't because I know I should Eat Clean and Train Dirty, or Train Insane or Remain the Same.

And believe me I don't wanna stay the same.

The weather won't delay or stop me either.  I have to roll with the punches and I will do just that, can't be Proud Mary if I don't have anything to be proud of.

Here's to pushing yourselves past your limits, because just like rules , limits were meant to be broken.


Anybody with me??

Hey I just met you and this is crazy....

OK, a ridiculous title I know, a song that is more like a virus that gets stuck in your head and you can't get rid of it.  I personally LOVE driving around Canjo City to this song, but there is a deeper meaning in why I chose this song, believe me!!

I just recently finished my NBT Bank Teller Training, yes an engineer getting summer employment in the field of banking? It's not what you would expect a civil engineer to do but I mean it's me, I do some crazy unexpected things.  During training I met this woman,Tammy from PA, I know its crazy making a lady from PA come to the big metropolis of Canajoharie to do teller training.  But the weirdest thing is Tammy and I had so much in common, and I had an epiphany.  Its like a time when I would look back to one of those clever sayings you find in inspirational books like Chicken Soup for the Soul and find "People come into your lives for a reason".  And Tammy did just that.  She had curly hair, loved to run, her son was an engineer, and she had my exact personality.  Tammy was me, just the future me. She reminded me that "its never to late to start a new chapter in your life, to run everyday, and to look at yourself every day in the mirror and remind yourself you are beautiful".  Sometimes things in life really do happen for a reason, and Tammy was my motivation to keep doing what I am doing and to work harder.

So I have been home for a month, and I have accomplished a lot so far.  But its June, which means its Boilermaker season! Strict diets and running in the morning, oh gosh how I love my sleep but to be a successful runner getting up at 7 am to run everyday just seems right.

I only hope to accomplish more this summer, and to remember Tammy when I feel like giving up.  And that she would want me to always keep a smile on my face and to I run everyday even if its just a mile.


I will continue to believe that things in life happen for a reason,


Anybody with Me?

I wish I was cold as stone, Then I wouldn't feel a thing. I wish I didn't have this heart, Then I wouldn't know the sting of the rain

A longer title of my blog then I usually chose, but to stick with song lyrics like my other posts.  This one fits me the most right now.  I know it hasn't been very long since my last post, but I'm hoping that writing this post will make me feel better.

Lately I have been in a rut.

Wait let me restart, and tell you why I chose these lyrics.  Lately I have been feeling upset. Upset about leaving Clarkson for the summer, leaving my friends (old residents) , not being able to figure out how I feel about some people, scared for the next semester, and an all around a fear of change.  Yes I am almost 20, and I still get scared.  I am not afraid to say it.  Its just that my sophomore year went so well that I have huge fears about junior year, that it won't measure up, or I won't have as much fun with my residents.  Or I will lose friends, great friends that I made this year.

This rut is coming from emotions, and my sensitivity.  A rut that not even running can fix, and usually running fixes all my problems, well except for shin splints. This is why I wish I was "cold as stone" and didn't have these emotions or thought so much about things or felt the pain I feel.  I get attached to people because I care to much, I want people to be happy and I forget my own happiness.  Then I get myself all worked up, when in the end I know my mom is probably right like she always is "Mary your going to have another great year, because you will make sure of it".  As much as I doubt her she is probably right.

So with the Boilermaker in 50 days, I am gonna keep running.  And I hope that this running will get me out of this rut I'm in.  Because its summer, and I don't want anything holding me back.  

So I am using this Summer to find my happiness and get it back,

Anybody with me?

Cause I'm halfway gone and I'm on my way ....

And another year down at Clarkson University, holy hell still feels like I'm walking down that stage grabbing my diploma from my High School principal.  Pretty hard to believe that two more years and I'll be in the real world.  Finals week hit me hard this semester with having to say goodbye to my residents (aka my best friends), a group of kids I will never forget.  Believe me they made me a video, Brooks 3 will never be forgotten and that floor will never be the same.  But finishing the year with a higher GPA, a bunch of new friends, and memories that will last a lifetime, is the best way I could imagine finishing my sophomore year.

As for now i'm home, woohoo Canjo City, where its so exciting I can barely contain myself.  I just have so much time on my hands its ridiculous.  I can sleep through an entire night without having a resident knock on my door at 3am, I shower without flip flops on, I don't have to drag my keys everywhere afraid of being locked out, and I also don't have a resident (friend) in my room to keep me company or make me laugh.  Home has its ups and downs but believe me so does Clarkson.  Its not a one way street.

 I got big plans for the summer,

• I get to recap with my best friend from high school , Jane Marie
• I am working on living with Karen at some point, we're so alike its ridiculous
• A Brooks 3 reunion (I would hope to be in store)
• Working at Horizons in July
• Finding work until then (story of my life)
• Visiting some of my sorority sisters
• Helping my family out
• Getting myself back on track! 

My to-do/to-accomplish list for the summer is only growing, Mines well make the Summer of 2012 a great one!

Is Anybody with me?

I hate this part right here....

Oh the best time of the year, not.  It is a day away from dead week and It's getting to the part of the year I hate the most .. .. Finals.  Where an IV of red bull and coffee are hooked to my arms, and I see less and less of my bed each day.  But this finals week is different from the last, at the end of this finals week I'm going home.  May 5th mom will be here and we will be loading all my things in the KIA, heading for Canjo City.  I can't believe it, another year down and two more to go.  I'm not ready for this thing called the "real world" just yet haha.

The thing I will hate the most these next two weeks, well other than my finals will be saying good-bye.  I absolutely hate saying good-bye, more than anything else.  I'm going to be saying good-bye to my Clarkson Family (Brooks 3).  After May 5th , I will no longer be their RA (which I'm sure they are stoked about), and I will have to meet a new group of 50 freshman in the fall.  Oh god can't wait to do that again.  I made some of the best  memories this year between the numerous hospital visits, drunken teenagers, and late night talks in my room.  All the hell they put me through was definitely worth it but shh don't tell them I said that.  =) .. I hope to see them all this summer, maybe a Brooks 3 reunion is in store haha.  I can only hope I made their freshman year as fun as they made my sophomore year.  And news to my new freshman you got some BIG shoes to fill. Hahaha!

As for this summer I got one job already, always looking for more.  I always like having a full plate even in the summer, gotta stay busy.  Well another job other than being the laundry bitch at home haha.  Gotta love big families.  I got races to train for Boilermaker I hope your ready for Mary Adams, Round 2.  Can't forget Zumba with Carolyn.

But I'm excited to go home, even though its always bittersweet.  Which is a good thing, I have two homes, the "place where i grew up home" and "i am on my own home".  


So Summer 2012 I am so ready for you to start!


Is anybody with me?

That's something to be proud of That's a life you can hang your hat on...

Since I'm a country bumpkin and all now, listening to country music more than anything, My resident asked me "What country song defines you?".  I had no idea what to say, all of the songs I listened to I loved but nothing really clicked, until one day on Pandora, Thats Something to be Proud of came on.  As cliche as that sounds, this song really made me smile.  But why??

For every hard test I take here at Clarkson or a million homework assignments I have to hand in, I am proud of myself for majoring in engineering.  I am proud of being one of the 10 charter sisters to start a sorority on Clarkson's campus.  I am proud of my floor, Brooks 3, a bunch of winners =) .  I am proud of all I manage, between working on campus, RA-ing, Kappa Detla Chi, and SWE tutoring.  But with pride comes more goals and more things to accomplish.

I'm on spring break now realizing, once its over I have the hardest month left in the semester.  One of the weeks entail finals..ughh.  But not only are the tests something I'm not looking forward too, I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye to my residents.  I know I will see them next year but they won't be my residents and we won't get to share the crazy stories and events we shared this year.  Hell, our floor could be a TV show on MTV or VH1, people would love to see a day in the life of a Brooks 3 resident or the crap I have to face as their RA lol.  At first I thought I wouldn't be able to handle the job, and at times they give me a run for my money, but they all make me laugh soo much.

Every year as an engineering major, is supposed to get harder, the classes get harder, the test even harder.  But I can honestly say that this year has been 100% better than last.  I have met so many new people that have had such an impact on my life.  Between my sorority sisters and my residents, and meeting Karen Dawson (my gym partner #partnerincrime) life is good.

Yeah, there are always things to improve on but there are also so many things to be proud of.

Keep Calm and Put a Smile On,


Anybody with Me?

But I'm stuck in colder weather, Maybe tomorrow will be better

As the temperature varies so does the days of the week.  Someday's are great, while the other ones I could do without.  Everything lately is so inconsistent, and the only thing that's consistent is the work load I have on my plate.  The only thing I'm looking forward to is Spring Break, and that's because this upcoming winter break I will be spending at Clarkson.  But don't get me wrong, I plan to watch tons of movies and relax, with one of my great friends Karen Dawson.

Being an RA, your residents expose you to a lot of new different types of music, and through all the years of hating country I can't hate it anymore.  According to one of my residents (or I should say friends, they prefer it that way) you can relate life to every country song not every pop song on the radio.  And I hate to say it but he's right, can't see myself relating life to "Sexy and I Know It " or "A$$" lol.

After having a week of barely sleeping, and getting sick, a retreat with my sorority sisters did the trick.  I'm ready for the three days of school we have this week then winter break.  Winter break will consist of applying for more internships or research opportunities, as I am trying to put my summer life together.

I'm using this break to get back on track and prepared for the weeks that lie ahead.  Work hard and then spring break is about a month away, and initiation is before spring break which means Kappa Delta Chi will be official at Clarkson.  A year an a half of work, and were on the final stretch.  I can't wait, and am so proud of all of my sisters!!! (even if my residents do call us Mexicans) 

I also have a new quote to live life by:

  "Act Like A Woman, Dress Like A Lady, and Think Like A Boss"

I think they are solid words to live by,
Anybody with me?