Recently at school we had an Anti-Slur Campaign where we Cured the Slur ( I came up with the slogan haha) but the campaign was powerful in the essence that its a step into changing Clarkson. JBall the professor involved in the campaign pulled me aside after to talk to me about the huge impact I have on this campus, but what she also reminded me of was that I have one year left at Clarkson. With this year left, I have only one more time around to make my impact on campus. But in order to make this change, I have to take a look at myself .. well at least that's what the King of Pop would say...
Four finals stand in the way between me and the end of my junior year at Clarkson. After that I go home for "summer" which will be less than two weeks with the fam. This to me is bitter sweet; getting this internship was all I ever wanted, but being with my family for the summer is tradition. But after talking to one of my best friends wittle baby Evan, he assured me if anyone could handle the "real world" it would be me. Sometimes you just need the push from the right person.
As for this "Man in the Mirror" more like Woman in the Mirror, sorry Michael changing the lyrics up a bit. My ultimate goal is to reshape myself, in the real world this summer. I want to come back to Clarkson my senior year feeling like I am in the best shape mentally and physically. In order to leave the positive impact I want to leave, I have to be happy with myself. I got a lot on my plate Senior year, 18 credits, Resident Director, Treasurer and Expansion Chair of KDX, a new event called Up Till Dawn I am the Cultivation Chair, and of course my job at financial aid. Involvement has truly shaped me as an individual on this campus, yes some may say "you have tooo much on your plate", or "do you ever have time for yourself?" or "do you ever sleep". The answer to all of those is yes. Yes I do have way to much on my plate, Yes I usually use the summer for time for myself, and Yes I do sleep on the weekends.
You only do college once, no one ever wishes they slept more and I wanted to live college without any regrets. My main goal was to graduate, and my other goal was to be well known at Clarkson (for the good reasons). I'm getting there!
But for now its STUDY STUDY STUDY, FINALS FINALS FINALS FINALS, and then a sweet trip home to Canjo City.
Here's to the real world, and all it has to offer,
Anybody with Me?
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
"Gonna be an engineer.."
So as everyone or some people have noticed all my blogs start with song lyrics, usually ones that describe the post. Well believe it or not this is a song and I heard it on Monday by Peggy Seeger. A silly song about how a woman wanted to be an engineer but her mom told her to be a lady instead. Well after interviews and more interviews and rejections and rejections...
I got offered a Coffee Processing Engineer position at Green Mountain Coffee Roasters. Yes a civil engineer is working at a Coffee factory, but you know what, it just proves with the right attitude and a love for coffee you can go far in life. ;)
I chose this song mainly because after all these interviews and rejections I started to question my major choice. Is engineering for me? Can I really do this? Am I going to get a job? I got nervous; all my mom could do was tell me to wait and keep my head up. After accepting the position I wasn't excited but nervous again. The fact that I am going to be in Vermont all summer, learning how to be an adult, learning how to be an engineer, it all overwhelmed me. But my mom and dad were so unbelievably proud, and that was enough to make sure I told myself to "man up" and do it.
Plus my dad even admitted that the news made him cry tears of joy. See how tough I am, I can make a 57 year old man shed a tear.(P.S. Don't tell him you read this =p)
I guess the moral of this post is that there are times in life where you question your decisions and you start thinking what you have done was either a waste of time or just you don't belong. But with the right attitude and a go-getter persona you can make things work out, cause things fall into place when you have a good head on your shoulders.
Now other than that, looks like my new summer home is Waterbury, Vermont. Gotta get my housing all set then I would love visitors!
Road trip, Anybody with me?
I tried to keep my head up and then my phone rang today...
I got offered a Coffee Processing Engineer position at Green Mountain Coffee Roasters. Yes a civil engineer is working at a Coffee factory, but you know what, it just proves with the right attitude and a love for coffee you can go far in life. ;)
I chose this song mainly because after all these interviews and rejections I started to question my major choice. Is engineering for me? Can I really do this? Am I going to get a job? I got nervous; all my mom could do was tell me to wait and keep my head up. After accepting the position I wasn't excited but nervous again. The fact that I am going to be in Vermont all summer, learning how to be an adult, learning how to be an engineer, it all overwhelmed me. But my mom and dad were so unbelievably proud, and that was enough to make sure I told myself to "man up" and do it.
Plus my dad even admitted that the news made him cry tears of joy. See how tough I am, I can make a 57 year old man shed a tear.(P.S. Don't tell him you read this =p)
I guess the moral of this post is that there are times in life where you question your decisions and you start thinking what you have done was either a waste of time or just you don't belong. But with the right attitude and a go-getter persona you can make things work out, cause things fall into place when you have a good head on your shoulders.
Now other than that, looks like my new summer home is Waterbury, Vermont. Gotta get my housing all set then I would love visitors!
Road trip, Anybody with me?
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
THIS GIRL IS ON FIREEEE....
Not only do I love this song, cause Alicia Keys has some ballin' vocal cords but one of my old residents Tomass belted it out in the Subway line at school to get a free cookie. Let's just say this song is not only a motivator but always puts a smile on my face.
But.. I didn't just choose the song for Tomass, but for myself! After many interviews and weeks of stress I got the RD (Resident Director) position that I have wanted since I became an Resident Adviser. With this opportunity I hope to show RA's how rewarding the job really can be. Residence Life has become a big part of my life here at Clarkson. This promotion means so much to me!
After catching up with an old resident he told me about his Big/Little people theory. I know the name of the theory sounds absolutely ridiculous, but just hear it out. The first thing he told me is that he's a big person now, and the little people don't matter. Of course this made me nervous, I don't want to be forgotten or remembered as a "little person". So here's the theory, "Little people are people who have nothing important going on in their life so they just run around talking about big people or other small people. It's the little people that will be doing boring jobs doing boring stuff and never accomplish anything big in their life".... So here was the tearjerker... "Big People make an impact on people's live's, just like you've made an impact on my life Mary". Yes, some of you may be thinking to yourself what an abstract theory but as I had tears in my eyes and looked back at my phone I thought.. maybe he is on to something here. After a rough fall semester, all these "little people" were starting to get to me, but in reality I let them get to me. I fell down many times and had a hard time getting back up. But Big people put a smile on their face and are only looking to be better than the person they were yesterday.
And a big WOOHOO to my blog for having over 2000 views!!!
I'm adding on to my miles, and keeping my head in the books for the next 2 weeks. I can't wait to go home for Spring Break. I haven't seen my family since January, that is way to long for a small town girl in a big family. It's time to go home and see all the "Big people" in my life, my supporters and motivators. Next goal on the list is to get an internship and everything will fall into place.
Here's to forgetting the "little people" who bring you down,
Anybody with me?
But.. I didn't just choose the song for Tomass, but for myself! After many interviews and weeks of stress I got the RD (Resident Director) position that I have wanted since I became an Resident Adviser. With this opportunity I hope to show RA's how rewarding the job really can be. Residence Life has become a big part of my life here at Clarkson. This promotion means so much to me!
After catching up with an old resident he told me about his Big/Little people theory. I know the name of the theory sounds absolutely ridiculous, but just hear it out. The first thing he told me is that he's a big person now, and the little people don't matter. Of course this made me nervous, I don't want to be forgotten or remembered as a "little person". So here's the theory, "Little people are people who have nothing important going on in their life so they just run around talking about big people or other small people. It's the little people that will be doing boring jobs doing boring stuff and never accomplish anything big in their life".... So here was the tearjerker... "Big People make an impact on people's live's, just like you've made an impact on my life Mary". Yes, some of you may be thinking to yourself what an abstract theory but as I had tears in my eyes and looked back at my phone I thought.. maybe he is on to something here. After a rough fall semester, all these "little people" were starting to get to me, but in reality I let them get to me. I fell down many times and had a hard time getting back up. But Big people put a smile on their face and are only looking to be better than the person they were yesterday.
And a big WOOHOO to my blog for having over 2000 views!!!
I'm adding on to my miles, and keeping my head in the books for the next 2 weeks. I can't wait to go home for Spring Break. I haven't seen my family since January, that is way to long for a small town girl in a big family. It's time to go home and see all the "Big people" in my life, my supporters and motivators. Next goal on the list is to get an internship and everything will fall into place.
Here's to forgetting the "little people" who bring you down,
Anybody with me?
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Just know you're not alone, Cause I'm going to make this place your home...
After a hectic month and even just a busy weekend, I think I am on the path to getting myself back on track. I have added some more miles to my tally for the year, kept my head in the books and stayed concentrated on my goals. I had to really take a step back and evaluate what my game plan is for the years ahead. I have recently been asking myself A LOT "what do I want to do with my life"?
But.. why did I choose these lyrics?? Well this honestly relates to my past 2 weeks. With all this focus on Residence Life in these past two weeks I have realized I have made Clarkson University my home and showed others that it can be a humble abode for them to live in as well. Through Carousel Weekend I have been reminded of the family that Res Life provides me and the family I can provide for my residents. It allows me to realize how far I have grown in just 3 years at Clarkson. A timid freshman to a role model for the underclassman. It was a nice refresher and eye opener even though it was a bit tiring.
My mom and siblings were going to visit me at Clarkson on Friday, but of course my mom the busy bee she is got called into work. Yes, I was disappointed and the fact my little brother cried because he missed out on an opportunity to make fun of my residents. The little smart ass that kid can be! Just the thought that my mom and my younger siblings we're going to visit the arctic of Potsdam truly meant a lot to me. Which makes me even happier that the days are getting closer and closer to spring break.
After calling my mom today, I realize that family and that sense of "home" will always be important to me. Whether I be in Canjo City or Potsdam City, I will always "make that place my home" and that I won't be alone with the new families I create. My mom told me on the phone that she thinks I'm "getting my groove back" and she couldn't be happier. Which in return makes me happy of course =)
So where ever you are, who ever your with, I have come to the conclusion that anywhere can be made your home if you really try and without my family, I wouldn't have been able to bounce back, or "get my groove back".
Here's to family, home and Beyonce (just cause I love her) =)
Anybody with me?
But.. why did I choose these lyrics?? Well this honestly relates to my past 2 weeks. With all this focus on Residence Life in these past two weeks I have realized I have made Clarkson University my home and showed others that it can be a humble abode for them to live in as well. Through Carousel Weekend I have been reminded of the family that Res Life provides me and the family I can provide for my residents. It allows me to realize how far I have grown in just 3 years at Clarkson. A timid freshman to a role model for the underclassman. It was a nice refresher and eye opener even though it was a bit tiring.
My mom and siblings were going to visit me at Clarkson on Friday, but of course my mom the busy bee she is got called into work. Yes, I was disappointed and the fact my little brother cried because he missed out on an opportunity to make fun of my residents. The little smart ass that kid can be! Just the thought that my mom and my younger siblings we're going to visit the arctic of Potsdam truly meant a lot to me. Which makes me even happier that the days are getting closer and closer to spring break.
After calling my mom today, I realize that family and that sense of "home" will always be important to me. Whether I be in Canjo City or Potsdam City, I will always "make that place my home" and that I won't be alone with the new families I create. My mom told me on the phone that she thinks I'm "getting my groove back" and she couldn't be happier. Which in return makes me happy of course =)
So where ever you are, who ever your with, I have come to the conclusion that anywhere can be made your home if you really try and without my family, I wouldn't have been able to bounce back, or "get my groove back".
Here's to family, home and Beyonce (just cause I love her) =)
Anybody with me?
Saturday, February 2, 2013
It's time to be a big girl now ... and big girls don't cry
So my residents have this new line, and any time anyone does something stupid all you here is "grow up" well unless your Draz of course then that's all you here is YERRRR.. Grow up?, well who wants to do that.
Speaking of growing up, my not so little sister turned sweet 16 not to long ago, who would of thought the Adams' would add another driver into the mix. I'm sure mom is stoked to teach a 4th child how to drive. Makes me remember my first time driving....uhhh I still hate it.
This year I have been trying to have this new outlook on life. I am trying to get myself back to how I used to be, which I have been pretty successful. My residents told me I am acting happy again, which instantly makes my day better. I have been going to the gym everyday with my seeeester, Rachel. I am her trainer, I make her life a living hell for the hour and a half we are at the gym, but she goes home happy because she gets to admire her muscles. Having all my classes on Tuesday and Thursday is actually a nightmare. It's pretty stressful all homework is due at the same time on the same days and it gets overwhelming. The career fair is around the corner, which always stresses me out. Got to keep searching for those internships or coops, I think once I have one I will just be in a lot better shape.
I think what I really need to do is go back to what I do best, making others happy/making them laugh. So I will be doing my acts of kindness again! I actually already started. I recently bought a bracelet for my seeester Rachel, a bracelet that reminds us no matter what faith and hope will get us through the toughest days. I had a resident who was frantically trying to find his calculator 10 min before his chem exam, and I ran to my room to give him mine. I know they sound like silly things, but making people happy is the only thing that makes me happy!
I can't believe the first month of the new year is already over, and I feel like I haven't accomplished much. I think I need a jump start for February. Get some more miles in on the track, step it up a notch in my classes, put a smile on, and try to enjoy even the toughest days because:
"Life's to easy to be so damn complicated"
Anybody with me?
Speaking of growing up, my not so little sister turned sweet 16 not to long ago, who would of thought the Adams' would add another driver into the mix. I'm sure mom is stoked to teach a 4th child how to drive. Makes me remember my first time driving....uhhh I still hate it.
This year I have been trying to have this new outlook on life. I am trying to get myself back to how I used to be, which I have been pretty successful. My residents told me I am acting happy again, which instantly makes my day better. I have been going to the gym everyday with my seeeester, Rachel. I am her trainer, I make her life a living hell for the hour and a half we are at the gym, but she goes home happy because she gets to admire her muscles. Having all my classes on Tuesday and Thursday is actually a nightmare. It's pretty stressful all homework is due at the same time on the same days and it gets overwhelming. The career fair is around the corner, which always stresses me out. Got to keep searching for those internships or coops, I think once I have one I will just be in a lot better shape.
I think what I really need to do is go back to what I do best, making others happy/making them laugh. So I will be doing my acts of kindness again! I actually already started. I recently bought a bracelet for my seeester Rachel, a bracelet that reminds us no matter what faith and hope will get us through the toughest days. I had a resident who was frantically trying to find his calculator 10 min before his chem exam, and I ran to my room to give him mine. I know they sound like silly things, but making people happy is the only thing that makes me happy!
I can't believe the first month of the new year is already over, and I feel like I haven't accomplished much. I think I need a jump start for February. Get some more miles in on the track, step it up a notch in my classes, put a smile on, and try to enjoy even the toughest days because:
"Life's to easy to be so damn complicated"
Anybody with me?
Monday, December 31, 2012
Cause tonights the night the world begins again...
Well here we are hours away from the ball dropping, its funny how in that ten second countdown you recap your year but as soon as you hear the "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!", your slate is clean and you're ready to start a new one.
I can honestly say 2012 has been a rocky year for me. I did a lot of crying, a lot of laughing and a lot of reevaluating my life. Somewhere in between the tracks of finishing my sophomore year, saying goodbye to my teenage years, change with friends and starting my junior year; I lost something . A part of me that keeps me happy through the rough times and keeps my head up even when I feel like quitting.
Quite frankly I hate this new Mary, she's kind of a bitch, pretty lazy and lets people walk all over her. So over the break I caught up on sleep, by losing wisdom teeth and sleeping through the 7 days I looked like a chipmunk. I regained the fun in life by playing with my siblings and talking to my bro John, who has only flourished through his first semester at college. I got outside to breathe the fresh Canajoharie air, and am ready to take on this coming up year,
I wasn't a total loser in 2012, I crossed an item off my bucket list "To fulfill a new year's resolution", yes ladies and gents I was a vegetarian for an entire year. Many of you may ask what are my plans for 2013, I plan on adding chicken back in my diet (Dad's orders) but I did it! I cut 10 min off my boilermaker 15k time. I got a professional job working at a bank. I met 50 new freshman, some baller residents. I keep the same close ties with my old residents, or as Tomass prefers me to call them "friends" :) (believe me they are my friends, they still have my back) My GPA continues to increase every semester. I was a role model for 24 middle school girls at a summer camp that still contact me today to see how I am. I got a little in my sorority her name is Jess, shes pretty awesome if you ask me. And...I set a new NEW years resolution, in the year of 2013 I want to be able to say I ran 1000 miles collectively through the year (not all at once I'm not any Forest Gump haha), I am doing this with one of my best friend, Karen.
But tonight when I am counting down those 10 seconds and watching the ball drop, you bet I will have a smile on my face. I got a good feeling about 2013 and it's definitely time to get the old Mary back.
Set some good new years resolutions!
Fingers crossed for a happy 2013,
Anybody with me?
I can honestly say 2012 has been a rocky year for me. I did a lot of crying, a lot of laughing and a lot of reevaluating my life. Somewhere in between the tracks of finishing my sophomore year, saying goodbye to my teenage years, change with friends and starting my junior year; I lost something . A part of me that keeps me happy through the rough times and keeps my head up even when I feel like quitting.
Quite frankly I hate this new Mary, she's kind of a bitch, pretty lazy and lets people walk all over her. So over the break I caught up on sleep, by losing wisdom teeth and sleeping through the 7 days I looked like a chipmunk. I regained the fun in life by playing with my siblings and talking to my bro John, who has only flourished through his first semester at college. I got outside to breathe the fresh Canajoharie air, and am ready to take on this coming up year,
and Hey...
I wasn't a total loser in 2012, I crossed an item off my bucket list "To fulfill a new year's resolution", yes ladies and gents I was a vegetarian for an entire year. Many of you may ask what are my plans for 2013, I plan on adding chicken back in my diet (Dad's orders) but I did it! I cut 10 min off my boilermaker 15k time. I got a professional job working at a bank. I met 50 new freshman, some baller residents. I keep the same close ties with my old residents, or as Tomass prefers me to call them "friends" :) (believe me they are my friends, they still have my back) My GPA continues to increase every semester. I was a role model for 24 middle school girls at a summer camp that still contact me today to see how I am. I got a little in my sorority her name is Jess, shes pretty awesome if you ask me. And...I set a new NEW years resolution, in the year of 2013 I want to be able to say I ran 1000 miles collectively through the year (not all at once I'm not any Forest Gump haha), I am doing this with one of my best friend, Karen.
But tonight when I am counting down those 10 seconds and watching the ball drop, you bet I will have a smile on my face. I got a good feeling about 2013 and it's definitely time to get the old Mary back.
Set some good new years resolutions!
Fingers crossed for a happy 2013,
Anybody with me?
Sunday, December 2, 2012
I get by with a little help from my friends ..
This semester has been a mix of emotions, and once again I was in a depressed rut, because friends were being not so friendly, and "sisters" were being not so sisterly. Nothing made anything better not sleep, not healthy food, not exercise,not Mom's care packages, and home only made me want to not go back to Clarkson.
There is just something about Clarkson this year that isn't the same
Until I got a surprise visitor yesterday, Michael! One of my best friends from last year came up to visit the old brooks 3 gang, and got them all back together. We all had a great night catching up with tons of laughs, leading to our old traditional Sunday RoBro Breakfasts. Seeing my family from last year made me realize I have all these people that support me, and are my friends. I don't have to see them everyday, or hang out with them every week for them to care about me, and they all know I care about them. Sometimes you just need that reminder that even though things in life change, your family will always be there for you.
After an unreal weekend, I decided to call my mom to tell her about the visit. She started crying on the phone (which in turn made me cry) telling me:
"See Mary I don't know how you can be upset with all of these wonderful people in your life that care about you and are your friends"..."I understand that people hurt you but there is so much more to life, it truly is wonderful"
and my favorite line "If this doesn't get you out of your rut, I am not sure what will".. Which of course made me laugh, mom had to throw in her sarcastic remark, I think it's an Adams' thing. But you're right mom, your right. This got me out of my rut and I have less than 2 weeks before I head back to the glorious metropolis of Canajoharie.
So here's to friends, the people that you meet that love you for who you are, not just love you because your related.
I think life is pretty wonderful too, mom.
Anybody with Me?
There is just something about Clarkson this year that isn't the same
.....
Until I got a surprise visitor yesterday, Michael! One of my best friends from last year came up to visit the old brooks 3 gang, and got them all back together. We all had a great night catching up with tons of laughs, leading to our old traditional Sunday RoBro Breakfasts. Seeing my family from last year made me realize I have all these people that support me, and are my friends. I don't have to see them everyday, or hang out with them every week for them to care about me, and they all know I care about them. Sometimes you just need that reminder that even though things in life change, your family will always be there for you.
After an unreal weekend, I decided to call my mom to tell her about the visit. She started crying on the phone (which in turn made me cry) telling me:
"See Mary I don't know how you can be upset with all of these wonderful people in your life that care about you and are your friends"..."I understand that people hurt you but there is so much more to life, it truly is wonderful"
and my favorite line "If this doesn't get you out of your rut, I am not sure what will".. Which of course made me laugh, mom had to throw in her sarcastic remark, I think it's an Adams' thing. But you're right mom, your right. This got me out of my rut and I have less than 2 weeks before I head back to the glorious metropolis of Canajoharie.
So here's to friends, the people that you meet that love you for who you are, not just love you because your related.
I think life is pretty wonderful too, mom.
Anybody with Me?
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